singing

Had a wonderful weekend last week at Stones Barn in the borders. It was a weekend called singing for pleasure and it was run by Maddy Prior from Steeleye Span and Nancy Kerr from the Melrose Quartet. Now folk music is not usually my thing, but when learning songs over a weekend, it’s a good … More singing

That glass :-)

I read a quote recently about that glass half full/empty theory. it went something like ‘while you optimists and pessimists were arguing about whether the glass was half full or half empty, I drank it. The opportunist ‘ ‘I quite like that! I have pretty much always been a bit of an optimist though, despite … More That glass 🙂

Pretence and games

I learned something about relationships this week.  Relationships are very new to me you see. I’m learning all this stuff very late in life, stuff most people learn in their teens or twenties…. I did have a boyfriend when I was 15 for about three months I think. It all ended when I wouldn’t sleep … More Pretence and games

Positive thinking

It doesn’t matter how positive I try to be every night, I wake up in the morning with that great big black cloud above me. Last night I was determined to be positive about everything. I did some meditation, which was great, I sorted out all my paperwork, read for a while, had a relaxing … More Positive thinking

the purpose of life

“The purpose of life is to live, learn, and love.” ― Christine Rice “The purpose of life is a life of purpose.” ― Robert Bryne “The purpose of life is to contribute in some way to making things better.” ― Robert F. Kennedy “The mystery of human existence lies not in just staying alive, but in finding something … More the purpose of life

Nearly…

I had two almost experiences this weekend. The first happened yesterday at the opening of the annual cp exhibition. As chair of the society, it was my job to organise the whole event, select judges, do the buffet, make the speeches and present the awards, etc.. Unfortunately, I made an error at judging time. We … More Nearly…

Small

Small – a poem   I made myself small To go unnoticed, invisible Small voice, unheard Small presence, unseen Small person, unremembered.   Behind mum’s crisply pleated linen skirt Small, quiet, hidden well; never speak to strangers School disco nights, dark corners sought Small expectations   Always invisible, least remembered face By friends once enjoyed, … More Small

better

Today I am a bit better I think, although this morning I just couldn’t get out of bed. It’s not laziness, it’s a deep feeling of bleakness about the world outside that little space. while I’m still in the little safe bubble that is my bed, I’m OK – the world can’t hurt me. I … More better

Get a grip, ruby. Most of the time I carry on as normal. Just occasionally, I manage to fall off the edge. i think I’ve talked myself back to sanity again. Until the next time. i do need to move into my own place though. to see if I can live the life of my … More